HOME IS FAR AWAY

Source: Screen Capture

I have a long way to go

But there are no taxis

And it feels like it’s gonna rain

The weight of today on top of my sagging shoulders

I wanna put it down for a moment

Home is far away

This is actually the tittle of my favorite song from Epik High lately, a sarcasm and mind-blowing song, you can check it here btw. As usual their song shows a dark music with genius lyric, when I read the lyric I feel like “Oh man it is like an unspoken word from everyone”. It exists inside us but we can not speak it out or we don’t want to be a pessimistic. When we do our routine greatly and make planning perfectly but then it does not run as our expectation. Then this questions suddenly hit our mind: Why like this? Why not like that? What should I do? Who can help me? Now I know Home is far away.

Nothing has changed

I’m alone in this playground

I got on top of the high bars

But I’ve been on my tip toes all my life

What’s always been asked of me

Is to reach a bit higher than I’m able to

The standards of the world is becoming like Everest

Sometimes that feeling gets worse when we compare our life with others. Seem like they have reached many achievement, happiness and all good thing. Then it feels we stuck here even we’ve worked our ass off. For me, I almost 25 years old but then I feel like have not made a great thing in this life. Honestly I’ve discussed it with friends of mine, and they think the same “we’ve stuck to reach our dream”. I tried to search what I feel about, then I found the  fact about Quarter Life Crisis, oh maaan what the h*ll is that? So let me tell you what I found.

In popular psychology, a quarter-life crisis is a period of life ranging from twenties to thirties,[1] in which a person begins to feel doubtful about their own lives due to stress associated with the transition to adulthood. - Wikipedia

Base on The Independent these are the 15 signs of Quarter Life Crisis

• You’re starting to question what your purpose in life is. WHY DID YOU PUT ME ON THIS EARTH, GOD? WHAT IS THE POINT OF MY EXISTENCE?
• You’re frustrated at not being able to figure out the answers to the above.
• You’re terrified by the thought that your best years may be behind you and you still feel like you haven’t done anything with your life.
• Social media makes you feel anxious and you can’t help but feel freaked out every time an engagement or baby announcement pops up, even though you don’t want to get married or have kids yet.
• Listening to Taylor Swift’s 22 brings on an existential crisis because guess what, you’re not 22 anymore and maybe not everything will be alright, Taylor.
• Going into Forever 21 is equally conflicting
• But you keep telling yourself 25 is the new 21. It is. It really is.
• You're torn between wanting to be a proper grown-up and wanting to be looked after by your parents in a bubble of safety and comfort forever.
• You feel the need to escape somehow.
• You’re torn between thinking ‘F*** it, I’m going to pack in my job and go see the world while I can’ and ‘S***, I need to climb the career ladder and work really hard so I can achieve some success in my life’.
• You’re offended when you’re ID’d but even more offended when you're not.
• You buy yourself an expensive handbag or gadget because you want it to appear like you’ve got your s*** together even though you’re not sure you can pay your rent this month.
• You don’t know whether you should be dating around and having casual fun or trying to find the one because everyone tells you something different.
• Your temporary job has somehow lasted three years.
• Whilst you and your peers were once all impoverished youngsters together, you’ve realized that your friends working in higher-paid industries will likely be richer than you for the rest of your life and the gap between your incomes is probably only going to widen, which kinda sucks.

These all so thruuuu, why thoooo?

Do you feel the same with me? Welcome to Quarter Life Crisis dude. Congratulation!

I’ve searched soo many articles about it and all of that says “It is not a mental problem dude, its normal” and the best paragraph that help me to manage it

“But remember, fellow young grasshoppers, life isn’t about money or marriage or any of the things we’re freaking out about. And most of all, it isn’t a race.”

Furthermore I found this paragraph that open my eyes:

I think this is the best way to manage Quarter Life Crisis, that we should know everyone has their own race and right time, so do ours. Maybe today, maybe tomorrow, maybe one year later or maybe someday. I know it is hard to stay be optimist when the negativity has taken over our mind (i know it right). Yet , trying to change the mindset will make us pass this Quarter Life Crisis easier (i think). Hold on cause everything coming up roses!