GROWING UP

Growing Up is certainly odd – The Little Prince

This quote that come from movie The Little Prince keep screaming on my mind. This movie tells about the awkward feel of changing when growing up.

I feel the same lately. Time flies, many thing happen and change. 2017 has passed 3 months, I realize I am not a teenager anymore, dude you are an adult now, the real adult! And yeah I think it is weird because I still often do childish habit :  lazy, dumb, get upset easier, give up easier, labile and many more. I like it like that, that just me. But the most thing that I realize about this change of growing up is in my society.

I used to like joking around and making other people laughing. I felt like it was really fun. But as I grow up it becomes odd. I just realized that people around me have not same anymore, not all of them like to laugh with me.

M : Hey what are you wearing on? It is like an Indian Cloth haha | A : Enggg, yeah maybe | B : What the hell you said? It is tottaly not funny, you hurt my heart deeply, stop joking, you are pathetic

Odd? Yess it is. I never thought to hurt their feeling, well the truth is I think the cloth is ethnic and unique (similar to Indian Cloths, and I absolutely not thinking that is bad, it is just unique). Nobody laughing, yet hating. Some people think I am weird, some other think I am arrogant. Odd.

Get it now? That’s why now Im afraid to joke with people, I try to make a joke just with the people who know me so well. I just changed.

I used to respond carefuly when people talking. I just wanted to understand clearly about what they told. But (again) some people thought “are you listening or kepo-ing (want to know deeply about people’s business)”. Well yeah I know it is people’s perspective. Okay. Then I try to just  listen as possible as I can. Its enough. Although later the other will say “You are an ignorance”, I will just keep ignoring. I rather listen deeply to my self and to my best people now.

But honestly I’d rather be Somewhere with my people we can kick it and just listen To some music with the message And we’ll discuss our big dream How we plan to take over the planet So pardon my manner
I hope you’ll understand it –  Here [Allesia Carra]

Then I used to force my self giving my best smile to people who made me upset. It was good, yeah I know it is good. But it suddenly changed when that people did it again, again and again without thinking about me and never asked sorry. It gets me even more upset. So what can I do now? Silent just Silent, I mean, I still forgive them of course. I just minimize my interaction with them, not because I hate them, just because I avoid being upset deeply anymore. Last but not least everyone also has their limit of tired. 

Many thing has changed. As I said before, growing up is certainly odd.