PUT ON A HAPPY FACE

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I was so excited when hearing that Joker will be filmed, I thought it was the solo movie of DC universe and Jared Leto might play as Joker like it was in Suicide Squad. I imagined that it would be an anti-superhero or villain movie. There would be a sadistic and action scene with light humour which tell us about how Arthur became Joker and how he fell in love with Harley Queen like how Wade Wilson became Deadpool and fell in love with Vanessa. But after watching the trailer I just realized, It is not part of DC universe but produced by Warner Bross and starred by Joaquin Phoenix. And after watching the movie I think I was totally wrong. It is not an anti superhero movie but more like a psychological movie that will bring your feeling up and down, sad and depressed like a roller coaster.

SS7S JAKARTA

Have you ever loving a group for long time and watching their concert is one of your goals? Yeah I feel it so long. I’ve loved Super Junior since I was in Senior High School. I love their music and their happy virus. I used to watch their variety show as my healing time, I laughed so hard watching their silliness and amazed with their talent in the same time. Actually they have come to Indonesia in some times for holding a concert, but because I was still in hectic days so I never watch their concert. Then suddenly in some months ago I saw this announcement in my twitter.

UPHILL BATTLE

This post is still about Jogja by the way. Feeling like still need more holiday instead of back to this reality (sorry) lol. One of my favorite destination is Kebun Buah Mangunan. This is actually a peak of the hill where you can see an amazing view of the sky and hills. The green, blue, and white are become one. It is freaking awesome tho. Yet none beautiful thing comes without any effort. And yess the way to reach this peak is so tiring.

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Have you ever give a question to your self about “what birthday means to you”? Should we be happy because on that date some years ago, we born in this world or should we be sad because our time in this world just be taken 1 year? I’ve been thinking about it since a month ago. Well finally the day is coming. Today is my birthday dudeeeee. Well okay, be happy or not Im being older now. Congrats me! If I were in 3 or 4 years ago I would hang out with my friends now, have some food, laughing, and they would give me a cake or hit me with egg. But now, are you wonder what I am doing?

MEETING JAYKEEOUT AND MILES

Lately I prefer to watch Youtube than tv, it is wider and have more variety contents, you can choose what content that you want to watch and what is not. And Jaykeeout & Miles is one of my favorite channel in Youtube btw. For you who have not known about them yet, lemme introduce them to you guys. So Jaykeeout or Jay is a Korean-Canadian Youtubers, his nationality is actually Canadian but he lives in Korea and his office is in Itaewon Korea. He rarely (or I think never) talks about his personal life, we don’t even know his real name, Jaykeeout is his “stage” name , a slang language (created by abbreviation lol) of Check-this-out. He is more focus on his content then.

HOME IS FAR AWAY

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I have a long way to go

But there are no taxis

And it feels like it’s gonna rain

The weight of today on top of my sagging shoulders

I wanna put it down for a moment

Home is far away

THE HOSPITAL

A few weeks ago I had to visit hospital for seeing doctor. I was not too sick, and I also not too health, I just sick but need to see the doctor. Fyi, before it I often visit the hospital and got familiar with the situation. Honestly it is not a good place for visiting,  I always feel those feeling when I was in it. The bad and good feeling.

THE LIMIT

Now here I am, sitting down at my porch and listening to Linkin Park’s song. Then suddenly a piece of my heart feel hurt. You know, just heard that Chester Bennington (Linkin Park’s main vocalist) decided to own his life. Its too sudden. They are even in world tour and after releasing the new music video 1 hour before. Chester Bennington and Linkin Park reminds me about my childhood. I started listening their song at 4 grade in elementary. I knew nothing, but they had a good music. Because of them I was interested to learn English.

GROWING UP

Growing Up is certainly odd – The Little Prince

This quote that come from movie The Little Prince keep screaming on my mind. This movie tells about the awkward feel of changing when growing up.

I feel the same lately. Time flies, many thing happen and change. 2017 has passed 3 months, I realize I am not a teenager anymore, dude you are an adult now, the real adult! And yeah I think it is weird because I still often do childish habit :  lazy, dumb, get upset easier, give up easier, labile and many more. I like it like that, that just me. But the most thing that I realize about this change of growing up is in my society.

RISK

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Yess at least that is one of quotes I found after reading John Green’s novel “Let It Snow” (although I didn’t finish it, because, sorry, I don’t really like the plot). I think that quote who said by Toby is true AF (for me).

MOVE ON

Albert Einstein said that “Life is like riding bicycle, to keep your balance you must keep moving”

You might fall, unbalance, or face bigger challenge but at least you have moved.

You might face any conditions worse, sadder, happier or easier but at least  you have moved.

You might have to adapt with new situation, more comfortable, wilder or even harder but at least you have tried.

THE SONGS OF DOWN TIME

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"Ball is circle" at least thats what people say. Then let us make a metaphore of Ball as it is an earth, yeah they both are circle. Ball is always go around when it is kicked, the earth also always rotate to around the sun. Sometimes it shows bright side and dark side, up and down, then curve and edges, all at once. Well yeah that metaphore also run for our life, hmm specifically my life.

Sometimes it turn down because kicked by problem, it goes to edges because we want to reach our goal. Everything can happen. Honestly I feel like lately my blog's post contain of "galau" post, maybe it is little bit suck to be read. But whatever everyone has their own way to express their sadness and dark side. I am actually a talk active person and teller, but for a sadness I choose to keep it. Other way writing is being my new option, I think it is better write than speak it. I mean I still speak it and let everyone know, but in defferent media, I speak it through song which represent me.

 I always looking for a song lyric which has the same mood with my mood. Maybe other people do the same and have their own song. And yeah this my lately song playlist which I think know my feeling and I like it so much.

BIRD CAGE

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One day, there is a bird which live in the small cage. He lives there everyday. Almost half of his life has been spent in that cage. He feels like everything so comfortable. Just eat when he wanna it because the food will come as soon as he ask it to his boss, don’t need to search it before. He can sleep in the soft mattress, not like other bird which sleep in everywhere-like-tree-ground-or-whatever-pity-place-this-is. He still fine although do nothing or just sleep all day. Everything just as easy as that.

But then in one time he see a Red Bird fly through his cage. The Red bird brings a piece of water melon in his mouth and then fly to the high tree. He looked so happy with his food and eat fastly.

A STORY OF THE SKY AND THE LITTLE TREE

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Once upon on time there live an extraordinary Sky and a Little Tree. They live in  one place called earth.

The Sky is really adorable and high, he has many things, all the things which might make others envy of it. In the afternoon he shows his bright sun and clouds then in the night he can show his wonderful star also a moon.

SHARP AXE

Once upon a time, a very strong woodcutter asked for a job in a timber merchant and he got it. The pay was really good so was the work condition.
For those reasons, the woodcutter was determined to do his best. His boss gave him an axe and showed him the area where he supposed to work.
The first day, the woodcutter brought 18 trees. “Congratulation!” the boss said. “Go on that way!”

WE ARE LABELLED

February 6, 2016.  Margo City Depok. West Java

Long holiday will come! Even its Saturday night, it does not mean my species are forbidden to hang out. I mean species of Jomblo *you know lah*.  Hey come on saturday night not only for couple, you still can hang out with your besties better than sleep for a thousand year in your room haha.

This night I choose to hang out with my favorite b*tch, Dian. I havent met her for 1 month because we still in our campus holiday. Then now, we wanna eat together and get some conversations. If you think we want gossipin’ people you will wrong, we just wanna share about our lately life, talk about movies, books or songs, and maybe ehm..talk about people. No I mean I just share everything with her and she does  the same, include the people on it. LOL

HE PROMISES

When you were asleep And I was out walking The voices started to speak And they wouldn't stop talking There were signs all around It really got my mind racing - Coming Up Roses, Keira Knightley 

Do you ever feel like you dont want to wake up in the morning? Much voice scream in your head, they say on you to keep sleeping and stuck in your bed because the real world is wild. Because you feel tired about all that sh#t. Because everything that you ever did is nothing. You feel like bring a heavy thing in your shoulder and cant move. You feel like cant face your way and just need to skip that time to the brighter one.

LAUGH OUT LOUD

I don't know why I don't see happiness in this town

Everyone I meet seems so uptight, wearing their frown – A Higher Place, Adam Levine

It is what I feel recently. December means Iam in a month when much task need to be done as soon as possible. A month when I must finish my office’s  final report quickly. A month when I will face my final test and study hard for it. Its a busy month! Not only me but I think people arround me feel the same. We are trapped in our routine and responsible.

TWENTY-ONE

“Birthday means I feel happy and sad at the same time”

Twenty-one years ago my mom born me into this world. The first time I saw light and breathe oxygen. A day I was given a beautiful gift by Allah called “LIFE”. Welcome world! Then that twenty-one years have passed, many things happened, I’ve grown up and walked until this time. And on this 21st birthday, I think I have some feelings, I don't know what it is called, the thing that I know is I feel happy and sad at the same time.

ROSE, BALLONS, CAMERA, DREAM BIG

A : What is it?
M : Photograph
A : What kind of photograph? Is that your goal?
M : Do you think i wanna sell flowers and ballons? No, I just i like their philosophy.
A : Philosophy ?

Rose

I sure that people’s  first impression about rose is beautiful, are you agree?